FREE ZHI KAI!

STATE-PROCLAIMED: SIMON, SAYS SO

I’m still moving, guess that means I’m not dead then again, even a corpse has some movement until rigor mortis sets in.

I was sentenced to 25 years to life [with the possibility of parole].

It’s the end of 2023, my 37th year of incarceration and counting.

I live on the soil which spawned Derek Chauvin, where crimes perpetrated by police don’t count unless they happen to be caught on videotape. I live on grounds where former police officer, Kim Potter showed a life is worth less than 3 years of time served. I live in a place where “I can’t breathe” is a mantra when there is an incursion with police.

Our universal common bond is that, it does NOT matter WHERE you are serving time, the authorities think it is their job to PUNISH you.

I breathe deeply, for those that cannot, while I still can.

Between sitting still and travel, the latter is better. Solitary was inhumane and throughout my sentence I’ve been shipped to 7 different prisons in 3 states. I was housed in California 14 years, Oklahoma for 12 years, am currently back in Minnesota.

It feels as if I’m running in quicksand, making and losing friends as I move along.

DON’T YOU KNOW THAT YOU COULD BE IN MY SHOES? YOU PUT THE HANDCUFFS ON SO TIGHT THAT I WILL BE BRUISED FOR DAYS.

I breathe deeply, as you hate that I am allowed opinions.

I breathe deeply, because you pretend you are better than me.

I came out of medical and still didn’t feel good. The guard said ‘stand there’. She took a phone call and told the caller, she was doing the job of two people. She made a separate call to regale the receiver with all the importance of her singlehanded work. She shooed me away to go sit down and wait. I took the initiative to make her job easier and went into medical and got a pass to leave.

DON’T YOU REALIZE YOU MAY HAVE TO RELY ON THE COLLEAGUES YOU DISPARAGE? DON’T YOU FEEL SICK SOMETIMES? DON’T YOU FEEL ANYTHING TOWARD YOUR WARDS OTHER THAN APATHY?

I breathe deeply, as you spew and shoot commands.

The guard rushed into medical after me, snatched the pass, rebuked the nurse and had me taken to jail. I was sentence on 3 charges; failure to comply [to stand there and wait on her], disobeying a direct order [to sit and continue to wait on her] and unauthorized area [for going back into medical for a pass].

WHY DID YOU TAKE A JOB AS A GUARD, IF YOU LASH OUT BECAUSE IT MAKES YOU FEEL LIKE YOU ARE SERVING TIME? APPARENTLY, YOU DON’T THINK YOU MATTER IN THE WORLD, THAT YOU CRAVE AND EXUDE THE POWER OF OPPRESSION.

I breathe deeply, knowing you wish I were broken. I breathe deeply, as you bury me in rule violations.

I immerse myself in books. I have earned an Associate’s degree and a Bachelor’s degree in Communications with dual minors in Business Management and Sociology. I am a paralegal via an ABA accredited program. I’m working on my Master’s degree in Business Administration. My college classes don’t count as a job and I cannot create more hours in a day.

WHAT IF YOUR KID ENDS UP HERE? IS THIS HOW YOU WANT HIM OR HER TREATED?

I breathe deeply, you envy my benefactors and education.

I breathe deeply, as you seethe that I am accomplished.

I have had gender dysphoria all my life. I am a trans male, transforming my body into the container I should have been born in. When I was in California, I wasn’t such an oddity. I illegally took testosterone [what were they going do, put me in prison?] I also figured the more you take, the better. What I didn’t know then, was that any extra testosterone a body encounters turns into estrogen. It is probably how I ended up with a large chest. I had a hysterectomy, ovaries removed and finally chest reconstruction.

WHY DOES MY EXISTENCE THREATEN YOU?

DON’T YOU KNOW WE HAVE THE SAME CREATOR?

I breathe deeply, as you begrudge me my worldly friends and Pride family members.

Simon says sit on your bed for 4 counts and stand for 1 count.

Simon says you pay cost of confinement with money sent to you.

Simon says college does not qualify for a state job.

Simon says don’t feed the wildlife.

Simon says you can’t wave through the window.

Simon says it is not your break time.

Simon says no critical thinking.

Simon says no prosocial behavior.

Simon says strip naked, squat and cough.

Simon never runs out of statements until Simon is asked for help.

I breathe deeply, knowing you wish you could step on me like a bug.

I breathe deeply, knowing you wish I would stop breathing.